The Mindful Homeschool

I think the internet is one amazing tool for those of us who like to communicate with others via the written word.  As a matter of fact, most of my homeschooling support comes from people on the internet.  I think the internet has brought about a second Renaissance and we homeschoolers are on the cutting edge of it all.  Without the internet, I would feel much more isolated and feel much less inspired in my homeschooling and mothering.  I gain so much knowledge here and feel like I have cyber-friends now.  Weird, eh?  And yet, I figure that there must be a lot of people out there like me.  People who want to connect with others who share similar interests and values.

But here is the thing.  Even though I share an awful lot about my life and my children (no names, of course) and my struggles, I am a very private person.  I have not told many people in real life or online about my blog cause I am a fairly private person.  My blog is like a very private diary that anyone in the world with access to a computer can read and yet … I don’t want just anyone reading it.  Certainly not all of my neighbors or all of my in-laws!  Ya know what I mean?  This is a private public diary of my life.  And yes, it is weird that I want to keep it private from some individuals, I guess. But Facebook is a lot like that too.  The people I do want to see reading my blog are other moms, friends, homeschoolers, yoga practioners, etc.  I don’t know if that makes sense to anyone but me but there you have it.  This is the reason why I don’t post more often.  I just don’t know who is sitting across the table from me in front of their laptop looking into my world.  I guess I am just weird that way.

Anyone else feel that way?  Or know what I mean?  Maybe I am just afraid that if I put it all out there, I will be judged.  And yet some of my favorite bloggers are the ones who lay it all out for everyone to see.  I love their courage and their willingness to share it all with the world.